I love to draw. But there's a few things that drive me to draw more to improve.

1) I generally like drawing may it be a doodle or something more complete but I enjoy it more when I manage to do a picture that I thought I wasn't able to do. Certain complex poses or certain details. Sure Just drawing a character stand there is ok but it get's boring and I like making a character do something when I draw them. I just enjoy seeing improvements in my own work. Sure you guys probably see lot's of improvements when I post something but I usually don't since it's hard to notice something of yourself when it's such a slow changing aspect of yourself. For example: weight loss. You probably won't notice like 10 or 20 pound loss ( I know I haven't with myself) but others watching you will definitely notice it before you do .

2) Because of my love for drawing I wanna make it my career in some sort of way. I currently don't have a job mostly because I get afraid that it will cut into my drawing time ( Time I could be using to improve ) I work hard towards being able to have this.

3) Family and friends. They all believe I can do it and very well too and it's also because of them I try my best to improve and impress them all .

4) Those who hate me. Though these people are very few, becoming successful in what you like to do really annoys these people so becoming something great will make these people boil in anger and that might make me get bonus happy points :>

5) Low self esteem? Yea.. Actually I do tend to have low self esteem. Drawing just makes me feel better sometimes .

6) A goal! Well... if you don't have a goal in life then there is no point in living I guess. When you know you are working towards something like that it is a pretty good feeling ^.^


I know that I seem to have really high standards but I think having that is what helped me get this far . Frustration for self improvement is normal among artists who are serious and passionate about their work and possibly profession.

Oh right... I actually just felt like writing something down in my journal. Most of the time when I think of writing something down it tends to fall into the " Pointless Bin" when thinking about it for some reason but sometimes it misses the bin and I share something :>



OH and I would like to thank you all again for helping me raise the money. at the end of the drive I actually had 158 bucks out of the 100 needed. I've had the Ireisai conducted Thursday morning at the Tsubaki Grand Shrine of America. The Ireisai is a kind of memorial service to help the spirit return to Great Nature. It's shinto but also buddist in nature from what I have learned. Shinto is something i've been trying to learn about and become more intune with since about 15 months ago I wanna say.